"Irritable! That is how I often feel!" And on checking with my wife, she concluded. Peculiar as it may seem we both realised something was not right, separately, on the same day, after 18 months of struggle.
Because of the realization that the consuming outrage that would rise up with no warning was actually a sign that I was reaching my end - I was depressed. What a revelation that was; to know there had been a way out, but that that way out meant admitting my weakness. And then an irony appeared; the instant I confessed my desire for help, in that moment - that very moment - hope drew near.
Irritation is a tell-tale sign of depression, especially in males.
Something would go 'wrong ' and I'd flip into a rage, even if I was alone or nobody else noticed; within me I was beside myself with ire. And at the very same time part of me was asking, in a desperate state of confusion, "What's going on here, Steve?!"
Such fits of anger were knackering, and though fortuitously there had been generally no observable harm made, there was much spiritual trouble that wanted to be reconciled. I was out of control and did not know how to restore that control.
But the word bad temper - or cantankerous - got me wondering. It hit me in a second of openness of heart and mind. God used that word to bare his truth. My irritation with the sign I was depressed. I had fought the best I could, in my own strength, for 18 months. Now was the time to truly admit my weakness and find help.
WHY Outrage IS OFTEN THE SIGN OF DEPRESSION
Why would we get immoderately indignant otherwise, unless our inner world was in flux?
Occasionally annoyance is all we have left to rail against a world we will be able to neither understand nor work with. That world, for who knows what reason or reasons, has given us cause to feel declined in some shape. All we have left is fury. And self-righteousness is the driver, because justice has not been served - in the opinion of the depressed mindset.
Anger unearths sadness for the issues of contempt in our lives we don't have any control over. And it doesn't take a lot to feel beyond control.
When we admit our sadness nevertheless , because we have realized the role resentment is playing, the path to recovery opens up - regardless of the despair within our circumstance. When there is a need, get pro help to assist you, before it affects your life and make you ned up in debt for cultivating nasty habits!
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Uncharacteristic irritability could be a sign of the sadness of depression. Occasionally all we have left is resentment; but on realising our need for help, to admit that, opens a trail to recovery. If we are honest about anger we may see the unhappiness underneath. Such sadness is an invite to be explored, to be certified, and to be wrestled with. As soon as we do these things the door to pray swings ajar and then totally open.
Because of the realization that the consuming outrage that would rise up with no warning was actually a sign that I was reaching my end - I was depressed. What a revelation that was; to know there had been a way out, but that that way out meant admitting my weakness. And then an irony appeared; the instant I confessed my desire for help, in that moment - that very moment - hope drew near.
Irritation is a tell-tale sign of depression, especially in males.
Something would go 'wrong ' and I'd flip into a rage, even if I was alone or nobody else noticed; within me I was beside myself with ire. And at the very same time part of me was asking, in a desperate state of confusion, "What's going on here, Steve?!"
Such fits of anger were knackering, and though fortuitously there had been generally no observable harm made, there was much spiritual trouble that wanted to be reconciled. I was out of control and did not know how to restore that control.
But the word bad temper - or cantankerous - got me wondering. It hit me in a second of openness of heart and mind. God used that word to bare his truth. My irritation with the sign I was depressed. I had fought the best I could, in my own strength, for 18 months. Now was the time to truly admit my weakness and find help.
WHY Outrage IS OFTEN THE SIGN OF DEPRESSION
Why would we get immoderately indignant otherwise, unless our inner world was in flux?
Occasionally annoyance is all we have left to rail against a world we will be able to neither understand nor work with. That world, for who knows what reason or reasons, has given us cause to feel declined in some shape. All we have left is fury. And self-righteousness is the driver, because justice has not been served - in the opinion of the depressed mindset.
Anger unearths sadness for the issues of contempt in our lives we don't have any control over. And it doesn't take a lot to feel beyond control.
When we admit our sadness nevertheless , because we have realized the role resentment is playing, the path to recovery opens up - regardless of the despair within our circumstance. When there is a need, get pro help to assist you, before it affects your life and make you ned up in debt for cultivating nasty habits!
***
Uncharacteristic irritability could be a sign of the sadness of depression. Occasionally all we have left is resentment; but on realising our need for help, to admit that, opens a trail to recovery. If we are honest about anger we may see the unhappiness underneath. Such sadness is an invite to be explored, to be certified, and to be wrestled with. As soon as we do these things the door to pray swings ajar and then totally open.
About the Author:
Peggy Chen is a mechanical engineer in The East overseeing the implementationg and problem-solving of plants reporting budgeting and proposals. During her off days she likes to do some travelling and sight seeing. Level-headed and frank personality she makes a good pal and expert to folks round her.
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