Oh that demon within. Will you make yourself known? When the switch flips south and light exits the room you attack my thoughts without mercy. Your resolve and will is perfect. You drive your aspirations deep down into my soul. And there I rest, the monster having its way, playing around inside me like a wrecking ball. You exist in all of my doubt about life and tear me apart the more that I attempt to run from you.
But I'll fight no longer, only to tenderly embrace your presence. Does this baffle you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so perfect and so tight due to my disability to see that it was the battle increased your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more I moved. But like I claimed before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I can see clearly now that darkness can deliver light. There's no fear in this heart anymore in regards to you showing up. Why? I know you are here...right here within me. Not walled out from me any more. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Actually present.
I'm truly mindful of what you now are and who you turned me into. No, I'm not trying to fool anybody any longer by showing them a fake smile on my face. No, I should just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all of the times you cut me down. Now, let's go for a walk and work this thing out. I'd like to hear what you have to say about all the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you pleased with your achievements? Maybe I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the beginning of a long relationship. I'm going to start talking with you for the first time. But now, my decisions are primarily based on light. It's really time to begin to live my life and make the best calls I possibly can. But I'm aware that I must consult with you...oh devil deep within. You can show me a trail that's worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I've always been frightened to go. But to ignore you further would be out of idiocy. Foolishness. Fear.
So let's take a hike. I'd like to hear what you have to say.
But I'll fight no longer, only to tenderly embrace your presence. Does this baffle you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so perfect and so tight due to my disability to see that it was the battle increased your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more I moved. But like I claimed before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I can see clearly now that darkness can deliver light. There's no fear in this heart anymore in regards to you showing up. Why? I know you are here...right here within me. Not walled out from me any more. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Actually present.
I'm truly mindful of what you now are and who you turned me into. No, I'm not trying to fool anybody any longer by showing them a fake smile on my face. No, I should just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all of the times you cut me down. Now, let's go for a walk and work this thing out. I'd like to hear what you have to say about all the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you pleased with your achievements? Maybe I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the beginning of a long relationship. I'm going to start talking with you for the first time. But now, my decisions are primarily based on light. It's really time to begin to live my life and make the best calls I possibly can. But I'm aware that I must consult with you...oh devil deep within. You can show me a trail that's worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I've always been frightened to go. But to ignore you further would be out of idiocy. Foolishness. Fear.
So let's take a hike. I'd like to hear what you have to say.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is the author of The Words Of Encouragement a website dedicated to spreading encouraging words to everyone who visits and giving them a reason to continue chasing after their dreams. If you are stuck in a rough place, perhaps dealing with that devil within right now, please read these quotes about depression. They will help. A lot.
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